Halloween has gone from being my favorite holiday to one that I tread.
Last year was a debacle, and I just wasn't feeling it this year. So I decided to just stay in and carry-on.
My friends were performing just down the street. I was tempted. And then I got invited to an after-party for the event not too far away.
Still, I just wasn't feeling it. But I went ahead and bought a ticket, just in case I changed my mind.
Even up to the last minute, I didn't feel like going out. But I was feeling a that dark cloud was coming on and that I really should stay home and weather the storm.
But it's my favorite holiday and I paid for the ticket and....
I went out; as did my demons.
I attempted to self-medicate and well....
What I have since realized is how Halloween like so many things has evolved for me over the years. What had started off as a excuse to get dressed up and be naughty turned into a family affair.
Skye has been growing out of the holiday. She didn't even attempt a costume this year which made me sad and Cindy was again out of town.
Hopefully I will learn a lesson from my latest stumblings.
I thought with the falling of the Autumn leaves; it would be appropriate to announce one my latest endeavors; or at least the latest version of it. Getting healthy again.
It turns out that the analogy isn't quite accurate.
To Turn Over a New Leaf means to make a fresh start, to change your behavior or attitude. In the 16th century people referred to pages in a book as “leaves”. When they turned over a new leaf it meant they were turning to a blank page in a workbook to start a new lesson. This could also be more generally used as to say you’re turning over a page of your life and starting a new one, etc.
So it has nothing to do with leaves or Autumn but the sentiment remains the same.
A Resolution til the New Year
I've had a number of frustrating starts and stops, pauses and stumblings in my latest attempt to get back in shape. I knew it wasn't going to be easy. It never is.
And this particular time, I had gotten in to the worst physical shape I've been in since probably back when I had knee surgery and was forced to take a few months off and really couldn't do much of anything. Even the year when I had back to back severe ankle sprains I kept in better shape.
A lot was tied in with my emotional state and current life situations.
And like so many times before, I set goals that were quite lofty, perhaps unattainable. Certainly beyond my capacity with everything else I wanted and needed to being doing with my time and energy.
I was setting myself for failure on lots of different levels.
Keep It Sweet and Simple or perhaps more fitting; Keep It Simple, Stupid.
Even I as I write this blog-post, I have to constantly edit and trim. I have to focus and narrow down the subject. That in itself has been a good practice in keeping this blog/website up and running.
Rather than waiting for New Year's to make a resolution. I'm making one now. And that is to commit to a regular work-out regime of lifting of weights 3 times a week.
Plan and simple.
I will still do other physical things but the priority will be sticking to a regime 3 times a week for the next 8 weeks.
I start today.
Now I must run.
Not literally, figuratively. Much to do.