Back to the Drawing Board
After my last "episode", I've taken a lot of time to think.
There were some things that I should have done awhile ago that have now stepped up in the line of priorities.
I've decided to go cold turkey with caffeine and alcohol at least until I start feeling "normal". I have been able to balance those vices with a pretty healthy diet and regular exercise. I understand that it wasn't a great plan, but I have tinkered with my system for enough years to have a fairly good handle on how my mind and body reacts to what I put into it. I was also able to keep my chemical imbalance in check by consistent physical exercise and keeping tabs on things that stress me out.
Don't worry, I won't be returning to that game plan. I will be doing more research, talking to people and doing a lot of re-evaluating. There are lot of things that might work, of which I can't rule out one way or another. But there are some things that definitely don't work.
I am one of the most physical people I know and also one of the most inconsistent.
The result has been than I have become a physical "generalist" which has its positives and negatives.
The biggest downside is that I don't have to have a regular routine to keep in shape.
Since being back in LA, I have found more excuses to not exercise than normal.
My diet has also taken some major hits. Being on the road and without a kitchen made it easy to make excuses to not eat as healthy as I had been. And before you know it, candy bars and grab-and-go's from 7-11 start being less of a once in a while kind of thing.
It's hard for me to get out and run. But it is good for me, so much more than just the physical action.
One of the problems with a blog like mine is trying to narrow things down to where it's manageable. I suppose its merely a reflection of my struggle to find a focus and a balance.
I was able to hit a couple birds with a single stone simply by coming to a revelation.
When I gave up my decorator card a couple of years back, I naturally thought that at some point I would be a lead person again, which has happened. I also naturally thought that I would need to have the tools that I had when I was a lead person in the past. And so I starting re-acquiring my kit, ladders, furniture pads, dollies, tools, etc.
Working on the pilot, "Revolution" reminded me of several things. Why I stopped being a decorator, how not worth it,(at least for me) it is to be a lead as opposed to just one of the guys on the crew, the best position on a set-dec crew is a shopper.
So why was I spending money getting stuff and then storing and time organizing it for a job that I don't want to do?
Great, more stuff to get rid of.
Kermit was so right about that. I had inherited a ridiculous amount of industrial shelving a few years back. I used some of it, maybe 20%.
I tried selling it on Craiglist and at a couple of garage sales. I took it to a place that sells used shelving.
Finally I took it to a scrap yard. Fortunately,I made enough to pay for the rental of the truck I used to haul it. But it seems a waste to junk stuff that can still be used.
I think I tried Freecycle the first time around.
With that said, I am getting set to try to find homes for more of our stuff, lots of stuff.
If you can use anything or can think of someone who can, let me know.
For the most part I'm looking to get some cash for the tools and equipment, put they will be great deals trust me.
We biked to the Santa Monica Farmer's Market and then I trained jiu jitsu.
Then I planned on sorting through a bunch of stuff I brought back from storage, not the things in the pictures above. More stuff.
I was going to put things on Craig's List and do a bunch of e-mails.
I had several lesson plans to go over with Skye. We went over a couple.
I was pretty keen on finding and taking a yoga class. We passed probably a dozen on our trip to the farmer's market.
And yet I still haven't showered or shaved, something I was going to do this morning.
I did take an afternoon nap.
I didn't have enough time to do everything I wanted, but I got a lot done. And today I am OK with that.
Learning to be OK is a top priority.